4 Months!

Wow... I can't believe I've been a Mom for 4 months already. 
This journey is a roller coaster ride but in yhe end seeing your smile and listening to your coo-ing and aah-ing is beyond anything!

You were supposed to get your 2nd spa today.  But the dpa was full reserved so tomorrow it is.

Your rash *we Javanese called this keringet buntet* -apparently you are heavy sweater- is getting much better.  I tried using herocyn baby, combined with sebamed cream, and last 2 days I use only minyak telon with you. I don't know which but one of them works.

tomorrow we'll find out your weight and length I'm expecting a mmuch longer you!

Hey Gorgeous!

Lots been happening.
You got your first rash which freaked us out.
You went to your 1st picnic at the dam. I didn't like pulling out my phone in the middle of an event it is just too complicated to operate it with you around.  So I just relied on anyone else who might be more than delighted to take pictures with their cameras.
Forgive me  on that.  I'll ask your Oma I think she has some.
Apparently you are a little too sweaty so you got this rash on your tummy and your back after a long trip.

P.S: Mbak Indra's help is a maasive lift on my shoulder.  And you like her which is awesome since you are very picky.

The Business Series

Should've posted this in my personal blog but too lazy to open other application.  Or should I?
I think I should. .

So I'm just going to update you with a good news.

1. We got a domestic assistant.  Means I can have more time cuddling with you without stressing out how messy our house is and I can also have more time running the business. And being lazy.

2. I got a prototype contract with Dragon Babi NYC.  An apparel brand based in New York. And I'm currently finishing a prototype for a designer based in South Africa.  And I did it all from home. Literally.  Between chores, breastfeeding, diapers changing, and your Paps. Hail Samsung Grand Duos for such a massive help.

Aah.. can't wait to be back bouncing around like I used to be. . If your Pa ever let me.

Anyways, I know I shouldn't, but I can't help but feel proud of myself for pulling this off! Hope everything goes well!

Love you baby!

Swag

LOL! You are too cute!

Your 1st Aqua Therapy

Yaaay you are 3 months old yesterday.

So you were 4.9 kg and 58 cm.
And instead of moving your arms and legs during the aquatherapy, you chose to chillax in that cute little jacuzzi. And you managed to be adorably exhausted afterwards.  How could you be tired of relaxing and floating around that lukewarm water I have nooo idea. But you were sleeping very soundly afterwards.  And your mood were awesome.

Oh but right after the aquatherapy you were screaming bloody murder when the therapist gave you a massage.  You were way too exhausted too continue.

Love ya baby!

Out and about

So your pa finally let you go out with me. Well even that was with your uncle and aunt and cousins. But still it was a great break for me. A chance to see the real world and sensing a little bit of real me. The-doesn't-quite-like-staying-home-too-long person.

We were in search for  a vacant canteen in malang universities. Your uncle Papi Rully was feeling like opening a canteen. Since I've run a canteen before (that's where I met your Pa), Papi Rully wanted me to come along for inputs and insights. So there we went! 

Huggy Huggy!

Baby Amora and Papa
2 months and a week or so

Your Little Birdies!

Here you go... your 1st little friends.  The birds wall sticker we bought you in Vankiz, next to Oma's shop.

You talked to them! You went coo and moo and I think you occasionally fought with them.
And I even think that you name each one of them.

Oh you are too cute!

I love you baby!

Happy 2 Months!

Happy 2 months little baby! Wow time goes fast, aye? All the sudden I'll be taking you to get your driving license done!

Look what your papa did. He took our picture in our (well, my..) worst look ever. You were a bit cranky that night you wanted to be held all the time, so I held you till you fell asleep in my arm. And I did too, on the chair. 

Like mother like daughter.

Anyway,  so you are 2 months now.  I really hope that I can take you out soon so we both can restart the shoe business and any other businesses we are going to run.  We will conquer the world, you know.
But. I still have no idea how I would breastfeed you in public.  How would I change your diapers in public.  What if you sulk and wail. Lots of things I need to figure out. 

Eyang Uti urged me to teach you drinking from the bottle.  Means I have to pump.  But somehow, emotionally,  I don't want to feed you other than from the breast. I'm afraid I would feel no longer needed.  I know it's a silly thought but it kept crossing in my head. Someone is being  hypersensitive , press the alarm!

Your 1st Spa Ever

Yaaay you finally got your 1st massage.  Well not exactly the 1st since you had one from mbok pijet when you were 2 weeks old and you had plenty from your papa.  But I mean this is your 1st  time having a massage in a spa.

It was Toddie baby spa right behind eyang's house.  And the place was really nice.

Well, you look happy and pampered! The spa lady said you can try the swimming therapy next month when you can lift your head already.  Can't wait for it!

Your 1st Eid Al-Adha

Yaaay it is your very 1st Raya ever. I dresses you up with this little cute bandana Eyang Kung bought you. We saddled you up in your pink little chair and buckled you in the feont car seat! Oh you were adorable. 

You and I didn't go for Sholat Eid. Because you were still sleeping and your papa and I had no clue how to bring you yet. So it was just papa going.

Anyway, after dressing you up we went to Bukit Tanggul but Eyang were in the mosque so we dropped by to show you off. As always you were an angel in the car. Right after we drove off to Permanu. That's Mami Cicik's parents house. We went there because everyone was there.  Opa, Papi Rully , Mami Cicik, Kak Aurell and Bang Dzaky were all there. Oma was in Jakarta so we didn't go to Kepanjen.

Age Chronicle

You are 7 weeks old!  Yaaay!

Nice Words

Hi Baby.

You are around 1,5 months already. And you are growing even cuter each day, and heavier, and longer! I remember the 1st day we brought you home, we only used like a half width of the table to change your diapers or clothes. Today, your feet reach the edge of the table already!

Anyways, in last few days I learned so many things about you and about life. I learned that you like to be held high and your head on my shoulder, like a laundry being dried under the sun :D I learned how to make your sleep better at night, by not letting you cry first before breastfeeding you. I learned  to be calm and composed when you are crying. And I learned that you don't like wearing The Clodi. The legendary Cloth Diapers. That will be another histerical story.

Oh, and I learned that if we have nothing nice  to say, we'd better not saying anything at all. Look, even some good things  can turn real bad if we don't put it right. So when our intention is good, why don't we take some times to think our words over and deliver it with a smile? Even bad things can sound better and less painful if we are able to deliver it nicely. It does matter because we speak and listen to communicate. For instance, now the major way for you to communicate is crying.  In the adult world, crying is identical to sadness, madness, or anything uncomfortable. So crying is perceived to be depressing and needed to be stopped right away. That's not the case with you, or all the babies in this world. You even cry just to call me to come to you. If I see you from adult perspective, then I'd be stressed out because crying signal some depressing message across my head. Well, I was stressed out at the 1st weeks of your age, of course. But see what I learned from you. Life lessons! Thank you Baby!

Mama loves ya!

The Daunting Piercing

Hi Love,

You are 1 month already! You also already got ear piercing. It should be very normal and I shouldn't be fussing about it, but I did. I should say I googled too much. I came across awful articles on baby ear piercing so doubts to pierce you crossed my mind. So I spent one day contacting people to see how they pierced their baby girls, and here you go, cute as a button wearing earrings!

You were such an angel. You cried when the midwife touched your ear with Betadine liquid. I know you don't really like being touched using cold stuff. You always refuse every time I  try to clean your lips, cheek, and chin from the dripping milk using wet cotton. But right after the piercing process was done, you fell to sleep right away. I even had to wake you up to breastfeed you right after.

Honestly I was crying when you were pierced. But I was there by your side holding you. I was afraid you'd be in pain, there was a small problem with your left ear. The midwife couldn't get your left earring into the needle because Eyang Ti was blocking the light unintentionally. So the process for your left ear took forever. Which mother can be so tough looking at a big long needle dangling in her baby's ear for such a long time. And you cried super loud. I know, you cried super loud for everything anyway :D but still my heart was broken watching that scene.

If one day you are thinking to get pierced or anything like that, better not take me with you. Don't break my heart twice with that piercing scene all over again.

Mama loves you!

Welcome To The World, Baby!

So, August 19th 2013 it is! In Puri Galeri Maternity Hospital at 07.58 you were born! I had to undergo Sectio Cesarean to get you to this awesome colorful world. It was supposed to happen because my retinas are too thin for me too push you through. I am hyper myopia. Apparently it will come off if I push too hard. Ewww. But then, the water broke too early even before any dilation happened. So you were born sc because of those two reasons.

I did WANT to have you normally, first because I think everyone is supposed to be born naturally (I mean, what about our ancestors back in the day when sectio cesarean is still not available? They are alive! They are, aren't they?), second because the thought of being under the knife is horrifying. I couldn't even bear a paper-cut. Let alone being cut open in the stomach. But well, I managed to stay very calm right before and during the process. It can be the joy for finally seeing you, or the anesthetic the nurses gave me, or just simply the natural feeling of a mother in labor, or it might the mix of all those together.

Oh, and I'm telling you. They gave me this anesthetic shot to my spine. Yes, my spine. I thought it would feel like hell, but the initial labor contraction took my focus from the needle IN my spine.

Your Papa filmed the surgery process from the first cut until you were born. I Intended to put the video with this post, but I guess I should think it over, and maybe I'll put it in another post one day. By the way, it took me one week after your birth day to finally watch (from a distance) the video. And it took me two (or more) weeks to finally look at my surgery wound. I just didn't have the guts and except for the post-surgery pain, I pretended nothing was being cut open.

You were 2950 gram and 49 cm and cried really really loud when you came out. It was such a relieve to hear your voice, honey! And when I said loud I mean loud :D You were one very strong baby girl!

Welcome to the world, Amora! 

May you have an awesome and colorful journey!

And remember, anytime you find the world is too overwhelming for you, we are here to hug you!

*Oh, in the exact same time, your auntie, Mami Cicik is also on labor, and your cousin Dzaky was born 16 hours away from you. So, your Oma and Opa had to rush back and fort between Puri Galeri and Panti Nirmala Hospital that day. Later on, Oma was exhausted and got sick.

Just Before You Were Here!

Hi Baby!

Welcome to the world!


August 19th, 2013. It was around 4 AM the time when I woke up and realize something was wet down there. I was unlike my usual self at that time. I was calm and all composed, I should tap my back for that. I took a shower (YES I DID!), I packed my bag slowly, I tidied up the house a little bit. Putting my brow pencil, powder, and lipbalm, and the last thing I did was waking up your Papa and telling him the news: We got to go to hospital, like, now. The water broke already!

Baby you were amazing. During the last days of pregnancy I kept telling you not to get out until our car is back. Yes, your Papa and I rented the car, and the lady who rented it kept on extending the rent until the night before you were born. She was going to extend it again, but thank God your Papa is super, he didn't let it happen or we might go to the hospital on taxi x) .

Anyways, on our way to hospital, we (your Papa and I) managed to call your grandmoms, argue on the administration book format for the motorbike rent, and everything else in between. We were busy aren't we!

Then we were in the hospital, just the two of us, wetting the floor of the hospital aisle, and waiting for you to come out!